Turning Over A New Leaf

I'm officially starting to do a 180 on my life. I'm sick of being the fat girl, the funny girl, the girl that hides behind a mask only she knows she is wearing. If you know me at all you should know how hard it is for a girl like me to wear a mask with the claustrophobia and all. Ok so maybe I can't completely give up being the "funny girl". But it is time to start thinking more about myself. As hard as it may be for most people to believe I am not as self centered as I can come off. Don't get me wrong I'm a lot like any other 24yr old girl, I would love for the world to revolve around me, but lets face it its never going to happen, and I'm ok with that. I am officially recruiting anyone interested in embarking on this new journey with me. Everything starts with a single step right? Well my single step was having the courage to start this blog. I know I am not the only girl out there that feels alienated for one reason or another. My problem just happens to be my weight and self esteem. Neither of which anyone but me and a group of friends can fix. Namely me of course because if I'm not willing to help me then why should someone else be? This blog is not by any means a way for me to whine and cry and think that my problems are so much worse then someone else. This is just my way of finally breaking free of the fear I have of constantly being judged by others and doing what I feel is right for me. Now don't get me wrong I will undoubtedly vent and yes whine occasionally, but again what female doesn't. Starting on Monday April 4th 2011 I will be keeping track of weekly weigh ins and any progress I have with my weight battle. Which I am hoping fixing that aspect of my life with give me the self esteem I need to fix the rest.  I welcome all comments both good and bad, hell even the indifferent. I have set my mind to succeed in this and will not stop until I feel I have. Yes negative comments will affect me but, not to the point I will quit like so many times in the past. It may have taken me 24yrs to realize this but I am worth it and I will make my goal of becoming a better me my top priority. So once again I welcome comments, words of encouragement, and criticism. When it all comes down to it this is something I have to do for me and no one else.